Sunday, July 4, 2010

july 4th

"I don’t know what the key to success is, but the key to failure is trying to please everyone."
-unknown


So its July 4th and i dont know why i started a blog, but i decided it was time to write again.
I figure no one will read this but it cant hurt.
Have you ever had just one of those days?
where you feel like EVERYTHING is going wrong and nothing could go right?
where the people you want the most are the ones that hurt you?
yea i had one of those days. It sucked.
You realize you are completely alone in the world when your with a bunch of people and none of them realize your there.
But as i was there i realized the empty things are what mean the most in life. someone can say something to you and it can be a complete lie but if you believe it and it makes you feel better then why not, pretend.
I pretend everyday.
My step-monster told me once not to pretend because it weakens your mind.
yea
Fuck that.
I'm an only child with an imagination that runs wild. So if the lies you tell me make me feel good i'm going to believe them.
Feelings are the worst thing in the world. like whoooooo decided that we had the ability to get hurt?
its just not fair. i would rather feel nothing then get hurt over the stupidest things.

I guess its just the human way to work your ass off to get nothing in return.

so this blog is lame and it will get better over time i promise.

but for now im going to tell you more(if theres even anyone there)

there is 6,697,254,041 people in the world and i'm hooked on you. You know this, and nothing ever will come of it.