Depression is nourished by a lifetime of ungrieved and unforgiven hurts.
-Penelope Sweet
I guess sometimes we all mkae mistakes and to erase them we try to forget about them
You think things are going to go away if you stop thinking about them?
They wont. They just become bigger problems then before.
If you suppress a memory of a time when you were child and it's a sad memory and then 10 years later have a dream about that memory. It can scare you.
So i think it is better to deal with the thing you are trying to suppress now then to supress it and deal with it 10 years from now.
I'm not supressing anything. i just know people that do. and its not all that fun.
I feel like they are lost and don't know how to act towards certin feelings and i feel that if they hadn't of supressed this cirtin memory that maybe they would be able to feel these feelings.
I for one have not met anyone that couldn't deal with it.
Depression is also a huge thing in my life.
I have delt with depression and i have felt that it just all wasn't worth it.
Why?
Now when i think about it my reasons were stupid, but when i think about why i wanted to die, it still hurts.
I can't imagine leaving now though i have so much going for me.
If i had decided it all wasn't worth living i would have never met most of the people i talk to now, and i would have left the once i love so much.
You guys will never know how much you mean to me.
I know some people who struggle with depression. and i feel for them i really do.
It's a hard thing to go by and i guess that all you can do it fight through it day by day.
Today i am going visiting. To a bunch of strange people i don't know.
I guess i will know them once I'm done visiting.
Tonight i have the pleasure of making supper.
and the gormet chef i am i'm making taco salad.
so complex.
My uncle is allergic to wheat and dairy so i had to think of something that he would be able to eat.
I think he wants the computer i'll blog later.
